It’s not something that’s easy to talk about, but I do have to finally break a months long silence on my absence, people keep messaging about it and I can’t bring myself to respond to them.
I think people underestimate how difficult- and time consuming comics are. For this series, it’s a one-woman job, I have to brainstorm, write, sketch, ink and color (plus endless proofreading) to get the quality I want (and the quality I think you guys deserve) all by myself, but recently, time for making the comic has been reduced, i have to focus on classes, and pay for rent, but the weight of all the responsibilities have come down crushing me and I wonder if I can do it at this time.
My mental health recently has also often times taken increasingly sharp turns for the worst, i’m less talkative and social, and often times my thoughts have gotten increasingly dark, bleak, isolated, and hopeless, and resulted in brief- but very intense mental breakdowns… some of which ended in self harm, and I had to break the silence on that to people close to me, and try to seek help so it could not result in anything worse.
I want things to be good- but they aren’t, I want to be the person that I want to be- but I’m not yet, I want to be able to churn stuff out regularly- but I can’t, and it’s hard to do anything when you feel like a disappointment to everyone.
I will finish this issue, and rework anything to the comic I think is flawed, I have a story to write and tell, and want everyone to see it, no matter what it takes, I will get this entire series done and won’t settle for anything less than what I want.
帰ってきます。
It’s not something that’s easy to talk about, but I do have to finally break a months long silence on my absence, people keep messaging about it and I can’t bring myself to respond to them.
I think people underestimate how difficult- and time consuming comics are. For this series, it’s a one-woman job, I have to brainstorm, write, sketch, ink and color (plus endless proofreading) to get the quality I want (and the quality I think you guys deserve) all by myself, but recently, time for making the comic has been reduced, i have to focus on classes, and pay for rent, but the weight of all the responsibilities have come down crushing me and I wonder if I can do it at this time.
My mental health recently has also often times taken increasingly sharp turns for the worst, i’m less talkative and social, and often times my thoughts have gotten increasingly dark, bleak, isolated, and hopeless, and resulted in brief- but very intense mental breakdowns… some of which ended in self harm, and I had to break the silence on that to people close to me, and try to seek help so it could not result in anything worse.
I want things to be good- but they aren’t, I want to be the person that I want to be- but I’m not yet, I want to be able to churn stuff out regularly- but I can’t, and it’s hard to do anything when you feel like a disappointment to everyone.
I will finish this issue, and rework anything to the comic I think is flawed, I have a story to write and tell, and want everyone to see it, no matter what it takes, I will get this entire series done and won’t settle for anything less than what I want.
帰ってきます。
So a little life update, I had a huge realization a lil while back..
I’m trans!
Holy moly! It’s a huge thing for me, and I’ve been questioning my gender identity since 2014, I only fully came to the realization that I’m not cis last year.
So yeah, I am actively seeking out HRT at the moment, and am no longer going by male pronouns, I’m going by she/her now
It’s quite an understatement to say that I have been thinking of transitioning, or me transitioned every single day, dysphoria’s been hitting me super hard lately and seriously affecting my mood. So I’m really, really hoping I can get HRT soon and get what I want and need.
I also miss drawing and want to update again, I hate pulling a Steven Universe and only popping in once in a while, I want to be happier again, and I hope (and am sure) transitioning will help with that
Here is a little Henrietta drawing I did for you, hope you enjoy.
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This is so sweet! I love this a lot, thank you so much ;w;
Love how you drew her eyes
おはよう
Hey all, I’m currently on vacation, but when i get back I want to make a more detailed post about my life that (kiiind of) relate to the comic, it’s personally huge for me! But i’ve been grappling with stuff too
Wihing you all the best and will get back to drawin’ sometime soon, see ya soon 🐾
Hey all, I’m currently on vacation, but when i get back I want to make a more detailed post about my life that (kiiind of) relate to the comic, it’s personally huge for me! But i’ve been grappling with stuff too
Wihing you all the best and will get back to drawin’ sometime soon, see ya soon 🐾
Because of finals week I’m going to have to pause on an update this week
1. The LA fires closed down all classes and have been causing much uncertainty over finals scheduling, campus has been re-opened for now and professors are still communicating with us
2. If I don’t act seriously for this econ final, i might like, flunk the class or get a D and be put in academic probation (again) after doing so well, i’d rather avoid that.. ^^;
And to think I almost went to classes that day…
larychamp asked: Hey just wanna ask how u are coming up with such a good story? What's ur inspiration?
I’m glad you think it’s good! ;w;
I try to draw inspiration from my own life experiences, and i think about the story near-constantly as well
I try to put in some stuff that would make the story more interesting, and most importantly, I try to make sure that the readers are actually invested in/really love the characters, like they want to follow them through the story
As for media that inspired me? Cardcaptor Sakura, Madoka Magica, and as of late, especially the anime Gunbuster, I love that show so much and it always inspires me
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Henrietta Lamb: Episode 3, Page 45
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